i am posting so frequently these days perhaps becoz i am rotting at home more often than usual=.

i finished reading New Moon! haha after i came back from PW, i laid on my bed for the next few hours and finished it at one go. Surprisingly it wasn't as bad as what people commented about this book. Perhaps they think it sucks as they didn't get to read ANYTHING about edward cullen for at least erm 200 pages?lols but i think the story still remains quite exciting, with bella and jacob yeah(:

My family had pizza for dinner tonight coz my sis ended her eoys.(wierd reason for "celebration") It was actually just a normal hawaiian viva pizza but my mum-eating pizza for her first time in her life- dislikes it for the sweet taste and only ate the garlic bread and drumsticks. wells, so it means no more pizza dinner for family.HAHA.( but my sis and i still can eat w/o our mum of course xP) And omg lar i just found out my dear mum is choosing the flats previously from hougang to lorong ah soo to toa payoh and now to bedok or even tampines. LOL my sis and i just hope and pray that her next target wun be jurong east or boon lay.

oh yea lastly HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANG WEI'EN! (:
(treat the special last one nicer next time!xP)

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you're the music in me(:

HAHAHA TWILIGHT THE MOVIE IS COMING:D

for those who have no idea at all what twilight is all about, i suggest you to watch the first trailer here:D



and for those who alr know what twilight is about and want to know more about the movie, here is a longer, more elaborated trailer.



truthfully, i can't wait xP

p.s. getting from xinni New Moon tmr!:D:D

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when you can live forever, what do you live for?

i have wierd dreams these days. HMM. lol i am getting wierder even though i am alr quite wierd.HAHA

dream no.1
i dreamt of my mum in the process of buying a condo and when i woke up she was really talking to the agent outside my room, but the only difference was to buy a cheaper 3-room flat=.

dream no.2
i dreamt of other cca's presidents emailing me about their concert repertiore and something like inviting harmoc to attend their concert coz they finished practising all the pieces and was going to start their concert early.

dream no.3(this is the most absurd)
i dreamt of myself with chongqing from yes 933 and we were hosting JAY CHOU's autograph session. and LOL, it was held at my old toa payoh 3-room flat and i could see thousands of fans (excluding myself duh) queueing up at the corridor all the way to downstairs. After the autograph session, i was able to get my own album autographed too, plus a pair of complimentary tickets to his concert! haha!

lols in fact there are more than these 3, the problem is that i dun rmb the others alr.hahas. hmm "sweet dreams" for me tonight then!:D
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too much.

oh mann this song rocks! i think the lyrics are very very true -nods-
dedicate the last paragraph of this song to all those 不是真正的快乐.
(:

你不是真正的快乐 - 五月天
词曲：五月天

人 群中 哭著 你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦 或痛 或心动了
你已经决定了 你已经决定了

你 静静 忍著 紧紧把昨天在拳心握著
而回忆越是甜 就是 越伤人了
越是在 手心留下 密密麻麻 深深浅浅 的刀割

*你不是真正的快乐 你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

这 世界 笑了 於是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则 不是 你的选择
於是你 含著眼泪 飘飘荡荡 跌跌撞撞 的走著

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你不是真正的快乐 你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧 却像隔著银河
难道就真的抱著遗憾一直到老了 然后才后悔著

你值得真正的快乐 你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什麼失去了 还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让 悲伤全部 结束在此刻 重新开始活著

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能不能就让 悲伤全部 结束在此刻 重新开始活著

i am bored.someone please stop me from munching.
...
turning back to a glutton soon.

p.s. i wanna play pokemon!:/

haha here is another self reflection. i realise i like to do this when i am bored.lols :D okay but this one doesn't really come randomly from my mind kay,i decide to blog about this(okay when i am bored) after i watched this documentary on this woman who is disfigured yet still faces her life positively on mobile tv.

and this is something i found from a website:

an excerpt from ineedmotivation.com:

(this is one thing i learn after i blogged on my first self reflection 1/2 weeks ago,mentioning something like i wanted to show my feelings in my blog but dunno how to phrase it. ha, i decide to act smart now and use quotes.lols)

"The first step into learning to accept yourself is to end the opposition to life itself. What I mean by this, is that there are countless number of people in this world that keep dwelling on something that cannot be changed. They become miserable because they want something else than what life is willing to give them. It’s that “grass is always greener at the neighbor’s” mentality. Stop feeling sorry or hating the cards that you were dealt, and learn to embrace everything that life has thrown your way. The moment you stop resisting what “is”, you gain a higher level of appreciation for whatever “it is”."

i found this very very true -nods-

Sometimes we might find ourselves living more painfully than others, perhaps due to the many unfortunates or setbacks we met in our journey that cannot be solely controlled by us. We dwell on the pain/problem/obstacle and think that life is seriously unfair. Some may even come to the point of wishing to end it because they cannot accept what they are currently facing.

i find myself in a certain part of my life constantly dwelling on a pain that will not be changed. However, i survive all these years not because i avoid/run away from the pain. Instead, i think i have tried my best to face it to accept what i am supposed to have.Even though sometimes i lose control when the pain returns, i still hold on to this belief that this is the trigger that trains me to have a strong heart and the ability to self motivate now.

Nobody says life will be easy.And one should be thankful when you are given a life to live in the first place. I am sure we will face pain/stress/setbacks/other unpleasant emotions throughout our life, but that doesn't mean it is not worth to continue to live through it. Learn to face all our obstacles and overcome your inner resistance to what already is. Well for suicide cases, I shall use jay chou's dao xiang lyrics to describe what i wanna comment about it:

對這個世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢繼續往前走 為什麼人要這麼的脆弱墮落

A life is precious. People ends it so easily when some who wants it cannot even be granted a longer one. How ironical.

Face our past bravely, cherish our present, and get prepared for our coming future.

Friends, let us learn to embrace our life(:

ps: okay this post is long...lol

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say "yes" to life (:

taking a break now from my op preparation :P

nth to much to blog lately actually. everyday life is just as it is: pw or school or sleep or eat or bathe or pw again...

and it goes on.HAHAs.

shall post jay's song lyrics!this wil be the third dedication from me to harkhui(: lol i think at this rate i will soon finish blogging all the album's songs here.HAHA :D

the so called "a bit zao xiang" song, but it is still nice(:

周杰伦 - 花海
曲：周杰伦 词：古小力、黃淩嘉

静止了 所有的花开 遥远了 清晰了爱
天郁闷 爱却很喜欢 那时候 我不懂这叫爱

你喜欢 站在那窗台 你好久 都没再来
彩色的 时间染上空白 是你流的泪晕开

不要你离开 距离隔不开
思念变成海 在窗外进不来
原谅说太快 爱成了阻碍
手中的风筝放太快回不来

不要你离开 回忆划不开
欠你的宠爱 我在等待重来
天空仍灿烂 它爱着大海
情歌被打败 爱已不存在

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情歌被打败 爱已不存在

i believe in myself and thus believe it will be the end soon(:

no mood to do anything.
just tired today, i guess.

sweet lyrics(:

给我一首歌的时间 -周杰伦
词曲：周杰伦

雨淋湿了天空 毁得很讲究
你说你不懂(我)为何在这时牵手
我晒干了沉默 悔得很冲动
就算这是做错 也只是怕错过
在一起叫　梦 分开了叫　痛
是不是说 没有做完的梦最痛
迷路的后果 我能承受
这最后的出口 在爱过了才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧地把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里你不用害怕失眠
如果你想忘记我也能失忆

能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪让它留在雨天
越过你划的线我定了勇气　的终点

你说我不该不该不该在这时候说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气
请告诉我 暂停算不算放弃 我只有一天的回忆

i wanna be strong.yet it seems that some force keep pulling me down.
how to be immune to that?
give me strength.

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能不能给我一首歌的时间 紧紧地把那拥抱变成永远

friend, expect the least unexpected

trying my best to shape my own life.

i love and agree with the lyrics so much that i highlighted all in red.LOL.

路-迷路兵

我们都该 回头看看 来时路
就算起风 偶尔有雾 模糊不了幸福
我们都该 在心里数数 感动的次数
谁陪你疯 谁陪你笑 拍拍肩 一起追逐

多少爱错过了才看清楚 多少事无法弥补才认输
多少次以为找到了幸福 却发现一开始 就是个错误

每一段路 都是一种领悟
珍珠再夺目 留不住心头热呼呼
真心的鼓舞 能温暖一生的旅途
每一段路 难免荆棘密布
把坚持牢牢握住 不怕艰难险阻
学会去爱 就不会迷路

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每一段路 都是一种领悟

dear you, you must be strong.

i had a fun time on saturday night. why? coz it was 4 JUSTICE '07 BBQ SESSION!

lols thanks to elizabeth for spending her time and wasting her smses to organise this event! Most of the justians managed to gather tgt at alyy's condo and HAD FUN! We bbqed, camwhored, played in the pool and of course, chit chat and crap :D and i musy say again! 4j rocks!:DD
here are some of the photos..the others can goped from facebook.lols.

Well, i realises a few of my friends still don't really like their jc life and miss their secondary school days. For me, i think i am lucky enough to have 2 great ccas that i like and a nice class that i do not mind to be in(: i can imgaine the unhappiness you will have if you are forced to stay in somewhere you don't like for long hours everyday. i know i cannot do anything to help to change the situation but i hope you can hang in there and pull through this tough journey! i agree with what fangting had said in her blog, even though you know there are still people around for you to lean on, you have to stay strong yourself. (: jiayou friends.

this is 4J'07, and will always be 4J'07.

anyway glad that quite a few agree with my self reflection!HAHA!i think i like to self reflect a lot eh, perhaps because self reflection allows me to know more about myself and make myself a better person. :D

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thanks for listening to me today(:
sometimes i don't need solutions, but someone to listen instead.

here is a self reflection.(:

sometimes i feel like ranting, but i don't know who to rant to.
sometimes i feel like blogging to expresses out my emotions, but i don't know how to put them into words.
sometimes i feel like consoling and helping someone, but i don't know how to help them and make them happier.
sometimes i feel like having more commitments, but i don't know how to arrange my time well.
sometimes i feel like being odd one out among the crowd, but i don't know how to fit in.
sometimes i feel like working harder to get better results, but i don't know how to stay determined.
sometimes i feel like apologizing and admitting my wrong, but i don't have the courage to do so. sometimes i feel like living more healthily, but i couldn't kick off my wierd and bad habits.
sometimes i feel like being more honest to someone, but i couldn't get myself to trust him/her enough.
sometimes i feel like helping someone out, but i hesitate to take the initiative.
sometimes i feel like breaking down, but i am scared of others' opinions on me.
sometimes i feel like forgetting about my unhappy past, but i couldn't stop myself from remembering it.
sometimes i feel like being nicer to my family, but i am too shy to say "i love you".
sometimes i feel like contributing more, but i never put in my 101%.
sometimes i feel like being myself, but i am too affected by the others.
sometimes i feel like being happier, but i just keep thinking too much.
sometimes i feel like believing, but i didn't try hard enough.

i realise there have been so many " sometimes" in my life. Every "sometimes" is a chance that can make my life more fulfilled. Yet, all i have been doing was the "but" s as i didn't cherish and put in effort in every moment of the chance that i am given. Some of these "but" s had caused me to regret in a certain area of my life forever and i know that nothing can change it anymore. I know i might not be able to fulfill all the "sometimes" that occur in my life in the future, but at least i should never miss out any of them again and try my best for it. Well, i believe life is fair. Chances have been constantly given to every human, but it depends on how each individual is going to react to them. That is why every one's life is different from others, it is because you and others shape it in this way.

And what i have learnt today: When chances arrive, i want to learn to grab it. i want to shape my life in a way to make it more complete.

(:
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逃避不是解脱。唯一方法只有去面对。

get prepared. coz when history repeats itself, it will hit the same scar.
when it cuts in deeper, you will scream louder.
that is why some scars can never be healed.

已经成了永恒的烙印。

this is 2nd song that is being officially released after 稻香! It is a super sad song, but i love it.lols.
tsk. this annual jay chou-crazy mode is getting way too serious. haha

說好的幸福呢-周杰伦
曲：周杰倫 詞：方文山

你的繪畫淩亂著 在這個時刻
我想起噴泉旁的白鴿 甜蜜散落了 ­
情緒莫名的拉扯 我還愛你呢
而你斷斷續續唱著歌 假裝沒事了 ­

時間過了 走了 愛情面臨選擇
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
離開時的不快樂 你用卡片手寫著
有些愛只給到這 真的痛了

怎麼了 你累了 說好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不說了 愛淡了 夢遠了
開心與不開心 一一细数着 你在不舍
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻 我都還記得
你不等了 說好的 幸福呢
我錯了 淚幹了 放手了 後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著 要怎麼停呢 ­

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只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著 要怎麼停呢
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you must be strong. (:
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"既然心已经为别人而跳动，那就看它能跳多久。"
-someone's motto now huh.. tsk.tsk.hahahahaha!xP

dear you, thanks for your concern(:
hope you will carry your belief and walk on.
and hope that you wun get hurt.
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how ironical. if you have been trying to find what's wrong all these while
when the fault has always been on yourself.

As usual, jay chou's album leaked out again this year. and now becoz of good preorder sales, somehow they extend the preorder date just like last year's and release date is now changed to 15 oct:/ this means more days for me to wait.and lol, it seems like not all the leaked out songs are accurate.( esp their titles.) hmm. self control jieying!

Helpless when she smiles- backstreet boys

She keeps the secrets in her eyes
She wraps the truth inside her lies
And just when I can't take what she's done to me
She comes to me And leads me back to paradise

She's so hard to hold But I can't let go

I'm a house of cards in a hurricane
A reckless ride in the pouring rain
She cuts me and the pain is all I wanna feel
She dances away just like a child
She drives me crazy, drives me wild
But I'm helpless when she smiles (oh when she smiles.. she smiles..)

Maybe I'd find it if I could (Maybe I'd find it if I could)
It hurts so bad, but feels so good
She opens up just like a rose to me
When she's close to me
Anything she asked me to, I would

It's out of control But I can't let go

When she looks at me (When she looks at me)
I get so weak

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She dances away just like a child
She drives me crazy, drives me wild

don't fly so high up
because you might fall harder.

my class got back all our H2 papers today. surprisingly it turned out okay, all passed. now left GP:/i think we will get it back on wednesday.

i know many didn't manage to do well, some unfortunately failed. but dun be so sadden over it! there is still one more chance!i believe if you all fight hard enough you all can overcome it. jiayous(: we will be there for you(:

kinda tired after harmoc today.long time since i had such a long day. but have to work harder in pw for now!gotta go!:D

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you should have sense it.

you all are so near yet so far.
and i wonder when can that distance ever shorten and become insignificant.
i feel helpless. it just gets further and further.

shall blog about openhouse today:D

this year's openhouse was not as "high" as last year's, i guess perhaps becoz most of the time i was at the concourse so i couldn't sense the "highness" in general. however, i was kinda disappointed during the mass dance section as very few went to join in the dances, which was very very different from the previous year. i still can remember how our vj seniors rushed in to the bus bay area whenever the music started. Some of them even abandon their stalls. lols.

haha! for harmoc it was okay okay lar. Only a few really visited our booth to enquire about cca stuffs while the others were either friends or harmoc seniors.thanks for coming anyway!(: Both of our performances went pretty smoothly. :D For Biz club we met some probs ystd, the sales of donuts were not as good as usual. we guessed it was the weather's problem. people rather eat icecreams(which i wanted to but no more left) than the donuts. in the end we tried to sell as much as we can. hopefully we didn't make such a big loss :/

After the openhouse, krystal,yunhan, xinni and i went to eat sakae sushi! but unfortunately the buffet that we wanted to eat was not available since it was a weekend.haha but we promise to come again one week day to fulfill our desires.lols.we took a picture too:D


anyway, i finally manage to get from clarice the photo we took during exco outing alr! here it is!

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你没选择任何人，但你选择了自己

HAHAHA i got myself a new blogskin today! :D

as usual i went to blogskins.com to search for nice skins, but i did it a little different this time...i combined two blogskins into one! wells, it was because i love the background pic of one yet i dun really like its format, hence i switch to the format of another blogskin that i saw instead.lols.
things didn't go as smoothly as i have expected since i had been spending the whole night in front of the com on blogger. but REALLY THANKS TO KRYSTAL!!! she helped me with my template for the whole night and make it looks really much better now! i think i will still be doing on the coding if she never help me with it - nods- thanks shui jing! :DD

oh yeah in addition, i change to imeem playlist this time instead of using iwebmusic. since it is much easier for me to find songs in imeem and it sounds clearer somemore.haha.

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let us colour our lives(: