i will be okay. friend, i hope you will be okay too.

(:

ohmygoodness, i cant believe i took a 6 hr long nap. lols.

rah, in less than 2 hrs time, MAYDAY CONCERT is going to begin soooon! i really really wanna go for it. but wells, i am totally broke. shall high myself at hme alone. HAHA

just one dream.
and it nearly destroyed all the effort i've been putting in all these while.

i feel like watching this movie.



我不再為愛, 而愛.


崇拜-梁靜茹
詞：陳沒 曲：彭學斌

你的姿態 你的青睞
我存在 在你的存在
你以為愛 就是被愛
你揮霍了我的崇拜

我活了 我愛了
我都不管了
心愛到瘋了 恨到算了 就好了

可能的 可以的
真的可惜了
幸福好不容易怎麼你卻不敢了呢

我還以為我們能 不同於別人
我還以為不可能的 不會不可能

你的姿態 你的青睞
我存在 在你的存在
你以為愛 就是被愛
你揮霍了我的崇拜

風箏有風 海豚有海
我存在 在我的存在

所以明白 所以離開
所以不再為愛 而愛

自己存在 在你之外

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所以不再為愛 而愛
自己存在 在你之外

FOCUS AND BELIEVE.

I CAN DO IT. SO CAN YOU.

we will get there.

this weekend was wasted again:x rah, i really cannot slack alr.

anyway i've been taking on free bible studies weekly these days. Even though i am not a christian, i am quite glad that my mum is quite open about me learning more about christianity(: Even though i have no means to join this religion since i am quite persistant in being a free thinker at this current state, i think learning more about it will be helpful for me generally lar. the lady preaching me was quite nice, she gave me new magazines every week to read on many issues and a bible(: she told me to read the bible if i am free but i doubt i have the time now:x today's session was enriching as it answered many of my doubts and opened me up to newer and broader perspectives.
hopefully in the process it can help me to train my thinking skills as well as to improve on my general knowledge(:

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i've forgotten how to face you with courage. needa find it back.

jieying, you need to accept the reality.

you need to learn to be immuned even if you felt uncomfortable when it doesnt fit to your own beliefs.

stop your stubborn innocence as you have no right to change people.

and you need to know you do have that so called ugly side of yours too.

don't blame any, for there is no right or wrong. it is just a fact of life.

too relevant to what i have been feeling.

张栋梁 - 错了再错

退到了绝境再退
破碎到不能破碎
那么为什么 你就不肯说
我只能再一却都错
泪水灌溉这伤悲
绝望是你赐给的安慰
为何你说谎 我却受惩罚
你不如就用刀刺下

我可以痛了再痛
你可以错了再错
不甘心 不闪躲
只为那失真的承诺
我转身让你换着活
你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破

爱或痛彼此纠结
悲和我无法分解
厌倦的疲累 成了一片黑
伤痛都已无法消灭
泪水滋润着泪水
背叛是你另一种慰藉
完美的借口 泪无不留下
你不如用乱箭射吧

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只为那失真的承诺

lols. blogger was finally back to normal when i just finished creating a wordpress blog. but i think there will be quite a lot to settle if i gonna change to wordpress. therefore, i think i will stay here a little longer(:

these are some photos we took on friday during class outing! yupps we had our 4 justice class outing again at our regular meetup venue- alyy's house (: this time there was no bbq, just pizzas and plain chit chatting. but it was fun lar, we even played "orientation" games such as " the PING and the PONG" and the famous "duki duki-tong gah tong gah" game. too bad people like xilei, congyi, fangting are unable to make it, but we did have people such as alyy and selina who returned from overseas for holidays:D wells, hopefully next time( shld be after As, more pple can make it, eg: scholars ) btw, thank you eliz for being our dedicated planner! i guess without ur initiative, everybody will be lazy to contact each other and agree with a date. hahas:P


peixuan's expression is so funny:P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

This year's parade was much nicer than last year's! well done to the planning comm and all those who participated!(: In fact, i felt touched when reaching to the end of the parade, especially when chen wei lian started singing my favourite ndp song " we will get there ". Compared to last year's ( hmm well i am sorry i dun really rmb since i fell asleep halfway:P ), i really enjoyed this year's parade. However, i felt that the first few "chapters" were kinda "dramatic". my sis and i went O.O when we watched the "news" on the "bomb" that was found on the floating parade and so on. my sister almost thought it was true lar lols. nevertheless, overall it was a good performance(:

btw, i am really quite inspired by those words said by our senior mentors and prime minister in the video.

yeah, we will survive.

rah i was overruled by my darker self ystd.
in the end all i did was either sleeping or stoning.

but i am glad.
coz i am slowly getting used to the pain that comes everyday.

and what happen to blogger la. i cant upload photos! at this rate i might want to switch to wordpress soon. LOL

perhaps i should just accept this fact that from young, i have been trained not to be an 100% "true" individual, even though that is what i have always wanna strive to be.




分生- A MEI

一個我想不會累 一直往前
一個我動彈不得 傷心欲絕
我不確定幾個我住在心裡面
偶爾像敵人 偶爾像姐妹

一個我在網路上 朋友一堆
一個我在房間裡 獨自面對
灰色的音樂塞滿黑夜
HIGH的想麻醉
好讓翻攪的胃安靜一點
忘了全世界

分裂前的熱淚 分裂後的冷眼
越愛誰 越防備
像隻脆弱的刺蝟
分裂中的心碎 分裂後的假面
不快樂不傷悲
情緒埋藏成了地雷

等待爆裂

一個我相信用心 會被感覺
一個我大喊真心 會被欺騙
開始的熱烈不停奉獻
後來剩決裂
謊言吞噬了心 帶來刺痛
撕裂的褪變

random:
people says vj girls wear very short skirts.
they should try checking around the other schools, such as the one near to where i live.lols.

BTW, thank you xilei for that phone call ystd(: and stop MJJing(MOJOJOJOOOO) to me. HAHAHAHAHAHAH.

perhaps waiting isn't the solution.
but when i put in effort, are u taking it for granted?
why do you always make me feel like i am the only one wanting to treasure it.