thank you so much eliz for those words of encouragement(: i am glad both of us are aiming the same career path. although it is hard, but i will be more optimistic abt it(: and for now, my passion is still strong, and i really dun wish to give up(:

and oh yes, perhaps it is time for me to research on psychology in a wider perspective instead of only focusing on clinical section.i might find out more career prospects that might interest me too!

and of course more backup plans are needed as well. since i am currently working in a private school, perhaps i should start knowing abt their courses as well.. hmm.lols

"Consult not your fears but your hopes and your dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and failed in, but with what it is still possible for you to do."
-- Pope John XXIII.

cost, cost and just cost.

To be a clinical psychologist, besides getting good grades in your bachelor degree, what i need too is money, money and money.

after achieving my bachelor honours in psych, i will be required to take at least a masters in psychology(clincal). In singapore, 2 such schools actually provide such courses. one is NUS and the other is James Cook university. However, the course in both schools are self-funded programmes. It means it will not be subsidised by the government as well as many scholarships and tuition loans. I do know that we can get a loan from the bank, but i have checked the details on citibank education loan. If i wanna borrow, either me or my family members will need to have a minimum annual salary of $250000-$30000. Thus, this solution is not applicable for me.

I never knew that the financial part of my dream will be that hard to solve. I thought academic wise it was really hard enough, as i will need at least a second upp class honours in my bachelors and good record of clincal attachments/volunteer work before i can be good enough to get shortlisted. Yet, the financial problems are worse.

I didn't really gave up when i reach that dead end during my research yesterday. i tried even harder today.Finally, i saw a glimpse of hope, MOH Holdings is offering a new healthcare graduate studies award. That is currently the ONLY SCHOLARSHIP and SOLUTION for me to take masters in clincial psych in Singapore. It covers all tuition fees and miscellaneous.

Perhaps, i should think really seriously in my decision of courses one month later. There is a need to find a balance in passion, interest and reality.

......

My dream seem so so so so so far away. Do i have enough courage and power to move on?

patience is a virtue. -nods-

watching 敗犬女王 in the process:)
GOSH HOW CAN LUCAS BE SO SWEET TO HIS GF? TOO ROMANTIC SIA.DO SUCH GUYS EVER EXIST IN THIS WORLD?
well of course i wish there are and hopefully i will meet one. haha!:p

sometimes we do need to face the reality. face the fact that i am not rich and money is important. adults always say children never get to worry about money. what am i not the same as them ? i thought i have matured enough to adapt to the fact long long ago. but i guess i am still unable to take it whenever there is some sudden shocks and hiccups. As usual, it seems to always spoil my plans , thrash my hope. nevertheless i will continue to look onto the positive side, at least living in this form of background allowed me to pick up alot of good traits, such as learning to be more thifty, how to self control, financial planning, and be more satisfied with whatever i have(: at least for now, i no longer desire for overseas trips, branded stuff, ipods, latest handphones or movies etc (i do admit i still crave shopping but i will control:p) well, jiayous jieying!! i will work harder in the future so the cruel reality will not block me from my future dreams.

lol lol lol i am seriously having this very big problem of not capable to multi-task whenever i need to. No matter whether it is about work, goals, plans, schedules or even entertainment

For example, when i think too much about making money, i will keep working,get stressed, get tired, wanna sleep early, eat a lot and simply forget about my other important plan of having a healthy lifestyle(in simple having a healthy diet:p) with plenty of exercise and keep away from oily food.

But then, when i am too engrossed in my aim to change my whole wardrobe and doll myself up, i kept spending away money and forgot that those notes and coins are something i have been trying to earn so dillgently these days.

And best,because i can never multitask, whenever i knew that i am neglecting one of the goals/plans, i will focus on that for a period of time and then in turn neglect the oters. SO, nothing will be improved or accomplished in the end.

Oh man. I do need to think of a solution for myself. Or perhaps i should just be less ambitious. Even though it may be slow but one goal at a time proves to be feasible for me.

hmm 海派甜心's ending was quite disappointing yesterday:x